Dreams And Destiny

He kicked the stone with all the frustration built up inside him. The tiny body fled in the night sky landing far away, unscathed. The temperature was down, still the day’s warmth was intact in some part. He drank from the bottle, swearing under breath, tears trembling in his eyes. How many days more? Months? Years? How much more?

The questions had turned mute like the night. He had left everything behind to go along with his dreams. He went against his parents’ wish, refused to bend down to friends’ comments. The only thing evident in his mind was his dream. For that dream he woke up every morning. For that dream he breathed everyday. Before he knew it, his dream had replaced his life. They pervaded everywhere like the smell of burning cheese that you can’t avoid. But now he felt like it’s done. He can’t do it anymore. Even after giving his best the dream kept eluding him like that girl in white dress ascending from heaven, leading you into the labyrinth. And he doesn’t know how long he can keep going after it.

So then? It’s done. It’s over. As they keep saying it’s in your destiny. So he will simply blame on his destiny and move on?  He head hurt with it. He felt like falling from great height.

He had no idea what to do. He had no idea how to keep the struggle going on. He didn’t know when to quit. He didn’t know who is going to win, his hope or everyone’s prediction.

Also what he didn’t know that the very next day he would bump into someone who would give him a big hand into the next step towards his dream. He also didn’t know by next year his name would be in air. He also didn’t know that within few years he would become someone else’s muse.

Who knows what else is there in tomorrow? Who knows how far it is before your dream actually becomes a reality? Who knows who between your dream and destiny will win? May be it’s just you standing between these two. May be you just left when there was only one step left.

A little note: I rarely write on abstract topic because I am not that good at it. I start somewhere and end somewhere I hadn’t contemplated. The same thing happened above too. But I had to write about it. I just couldn’t help.

I won’t believe if you say anyone walks on the earth without the weight of dream inside them. Everyone has got a dream of their own. It might not be as convincing as yours, yet it’s theirs. Some dream of getting successful, some dream of fame, some dream of being rich, some just dream of dreams.

Some dream to be the best in something, some dream to just make new records, while some dream to be wrapped up like me to stay inside the fragrance of stories.

Some dream of love, some dream of marriage, some dream of children, while some dream of getting old in their partner’s arm.

Dreams can be silly, dreams can be funny, dreams can be far, dreams can be yearning. Dreams can knock on the door or bump in the crowd. Dreams can be the flash of smile or dreams can be waves around. Dreams can be anything but unreal. And they don’t leave you, it’s you who leave their hand.

Remember that everyone had a point in their life when they wanted to discard their dream and move on. Among them who didn’t, the next day’s sun was the brightest in their life. It has happened with anyone’s name you read on covers or credit rolls or some billboards. Just a little more to go. That’s all you need.

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New Year Post!

Happy New Year!

Happy Makar Sankranti!!

Happy Pongal!!!

To all!!!!

This is first post of this year and I am already 15 days snailing late. Yet I am happy that even though it didn't seem feasible, I made it here. Due to situation, work pressure and health issues; I didn't think I could make it to here. But I did. And it was possible because of your love and appreciation (& your sweet words too ;)).

First of all, a very very happy new year to all my friends. I wish that this year brings you all that you kept complaining about in its ancestor year. Well! Mine one started with a kick off vacation and visit to my cousin's house. I enjoyed so much there that finally due to tiredness and sudden climate change I got severe cold and fever. But now I am fine and all set to boom.

In a quick peek, if I say then last year was a tumultuous one for me, a year that I will remember forever. It was a year where a cried the most, I laughed the most, I lost in huge and again what I gained was no less too. It's the year which gave me a name, a recognition that I always dreamed of. The journey was knee-jerking nonetheless it was memorable. I met a lot of people, made new friends. I got to know about different cultures and states. On the other hand I was dragged into some unfair matters where my conscience didn't allow me to go with and I took the stand. I had to pay the price but my peace was saved at the end of the day. And in the end I came out as a sharp, bold, skilled and strong person, both emotionally and intellectually. I am happy the way year 2014 ended. 

Now before I ramble a lot about this and that, let me spill the set of resolutions of this year. Everyone has their share of flaws. And the person who knows how overcome those hurdle is winner at the end. Because I believe you are the biggest competitor of yourself and your yesterday is the biggest challenge for your today. So follow are the my set of resolution. Let's have a peek:

1.Give More Of Myself To Me: The first foremost for yourself is you and  when you forget this thing you regret. People started to ignore you, say unpleasant things before your face not caring how you will feel about it. And at that time you start cursing yourself. But instead of curse, start loving yourself. More than anyone’s love you need your own love. So this year I hope to love more to myself. It may seem selfish, yet I would not ignore myself. Little pampering, small rewards and bit more of adrenaline rush is what I am planning for myself.

2.Help The Needed At Least Once In A Month: Today the society has become so self-centered that the future seems really destructive. The day is not far away when your own blood will be against your life. No one has time to look about the begging child at road side. No one has the time to stop by and call ambulance when someone is dying. Why me only? Others can do. This has become the primary and common notion. But before preaching others I should look at myself. Have I helped anyone? May be! But from now on this may be will turn into a firm yes!I have. From now on I will help at least once in a month to someone who is in need. Be it monetary help or emotional support. I won't be struggling with those typical questions. 

3.More Work, More Fun: Once I stepped into the IT industry I got to know what real responsibility is. I understood how important it is to think before act and most importantly act. When I started working on my first project, it was tough it had a strict timeline. I was new and I had to give extra hours to learn and complete the work. But when the project ended, the hard work was appreciated, I was on heaven. I had the exact feeling of finding that blue lotus in deep valleys of Himalaya. And slowly that appreciation and affection of teammates is turning me towards to work. Now I am in no mood to stop. I will push myself to edge. I will work more, try to improvise myself and give my best. And at the end I will reward myself too. I will have fun. I will enjoy every moment. If life gives me lemon, I will make lemonade. Because who know what's there in tomorrow. Today is yours, live it to fullest.

4.Start Counting:It seems to be high time to start counting two biggest currencies of life. Penny and Time. Time is money and Money is time. We all know this. Yet since childhood I have never kept track of either. I am a chronic procrastinator. And I have suffered a lot in past, have been scolded profusely by mom, dejected by friends. That was okay. But now the situation has changed and responsibility has increased by many folds. Now I am on my own. I need to pay my own bills. My work-hours are being counted. I have to balance my full-time job, my hobbies and personal life. So before the matter slips out of my hand, I will try to keep a track of both. 

5.Steel The Determination: There are a few projects and a few ideas in mind from a long time. But I am unable to work on them. First because of poor management of time. And secondly due to lack of determination. But this year I want to finish them. At least at the end of year I will have satisfaction that these projects are not piled up and ignored.

6.More Sorry, More Thanks Yous': If someone asks what is your weakness. My answer will be 'people management'. I try but I fail and I suffer. I am the one missing from the group. I am the one friends complaint about a lot. But from now I will try not to give them any chance to complaint. I will be a good friend who they can count in social gatherings. For that I am planning to schedule my time for friends and family. I will try to communicate with them (whatsup doesn’t count in it) and at least once in a month.

7.Learn At Least One New Language: This has been in my wish list from along time. I want to widen my linguistic arena to a new milestone. I want to learn one more language. And I will. Everyday I will take out only fifteen minutes for it and hope at the end of this year I will master over that language.

8.Read Everyday! Write Everyday!:  Reading gives me a chance to escape from this confusing way around and let my imagination to travel to anywhere anytime. With turning pages, I cocoon myself with the imagination of the writer between the lines. It gives me the solace. It doesn’t question my weird ways like others. Exactly the same with writing. It allows me to open up, express what is clamped inside me. And I want to make it a habit. Take some time everyday to write. Anything. Even small notes matter. But write something everyday and read something everyday.

Well! That’s all. That’s all for next 350 days. I hope that I will keep them because people near to me say that I am a ‘crazy’ girl. And I know craze will drive me up the wall.

Don't forget to drop by and tell me how was your new year? What is new added in your list. I am with all my eager bunny ears.

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Where was I?

It feels strange to sit here with my laptop in my lap and pour my heart out on MS-sheets. Long six months. Ah!

 Well! As they say whatever happens, it’s for your good only. You just need to hold faith and understand the undersigned boards of fate. For five months out of those six months I was away, locked in a guarded heaven. I am not exaggerating here when I say heaven.  It was truly a heaven from every angle and got a name too, that’s “Infosys Mysore Campus” – world’s largest corporate university. A sanctuary! An oasis!

Everything has a price and I had to pay it too. I was away from my dil ka tudka (piece of heart), my laptop and also from such sweet people like you guys! I can’t tell you how much I missed you all. I don’t know how many times I was desperate to blurt out everything , good or bad, dark or bright, sweet or acidic everything and anything like I used to. But writing a five hundred words of post on mobile was literally a pain in fingers. I tried for a while to write on mobile. But they were just small and brisker ones so that I don’t forget how to write altogether.

Now that I am back, it may take a while to build up that speed again. But I am sure that as long as I have you guys’ support and love I can cross any miles with smiles.

And now it’s time to share to good news with you that is starving to be shared from a very long time. A dream too good to be real has become my life now. After months of rigorous effort of moving from pillar to pillar or interview to interview for five months, finally I cracked into Infosys and also completed its hell-bent training successfully. Now I can proudly say that I am Infocian. J Yuppie!! And also I got posted to Bangalore DC and currently working for a US bank in Java domain.  So double Yuppie!! JJ

Now your turn. How were you? How happening was your life when I was away? Did I miss something?  Did you guys miss me? Will be waiting for your comments. J

Can you prove yourself?

In my life I have seen many instances where I have heard saying someone "How to prove that it wasn't me". If you are saying anywhere to anyone except than crime investigators then my dear you have landed in a wrong path on a wrong foot.

  Proving yourself! This thing comes when you love someone a lot and want them to believe you. You are afraid that if you can't make that random person believe in you then your life will be sworn to hell. Mostly it happens with someone you are in love(the kind of love with which you want to spend your life).

But at that times you forget that love and trust are brothers joined at hip. You can't separate them. If that person doesn't trust you now then he or she won't trust ever even if you bake him the best cake with his favourite recipe or you bring to her everything that is on her wishlist, you can't get an ounce of trust after running to this length. You can't prove yourself to others. It's stupidest thing ever, even stupider than running to catch a train that has already left the station. In real there is no emergency brake to pull and stop it.

And who am I say all these? 
I am the one who has travelled this road before, willingly or unwillingly I have broken my heart repeating the mistake, tore open myself where I wasn't suppossed to, cried till every part of my body was dehydrated and hydrating it I have cried again. Too stupid! Too stubborn!

And why am saying all these? Have I started counseling service?
Nope..

Still then why am I preaching? 
Simply because even after working for twelve hours a day, beautiful quote by Maya Angelou somehow  managed to find its to me and I couldn't stop ramble about it.

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What? You knew all these already. Then why are you here till now. Go out. Meet new people and explore. Make friends. Enjoy the eve.